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Then I show up at Grimes's house on a Tuesday afternoon. Grimes's existent name is Claire Boucher, and she answers to Grimes or Claire, or fifty-fifty ameliorate, c, as in the speed of light. But ever since she began dating the richest man in all of man civilization, and especially since she had a child with him in May 2020—a male child they call X Æ A-12, which she pronounces "X A.I. Archangel," or X for brusk—she'due south had to learn to make peace with much of the world erasing her identity as one of the past decade's most fearless, adventurous solo artists and coming to know her, first and foremost, every bit Elon Musk's girlfriend.

For a person who has spent her entire life flinging herself at the world and making fine art out of the combustions, her new existence has required some adjusting. Discretion does not come naturally to her. Last year, someone posted a seven-minute mash-up on YouTube titled "Grimes oversharing in interviews compilation." "She has no filter—what is in her heed comes out her oral cavity," says Liv Boeree, a former World Serial of Poker star and trained astrophysicist, whom Grimes met through Musk and fell madly in friendship with afterward a marathon chat about artificial intelligence. "I find it so refreshing and exhilarating, but obviously information technology causes her trouble."

Once upon a time, this was office of Grimes's charm, but now an errant remark could follow her kid for life, or crater Tesla's stock, or tip off people about where she lives. Doxers and stalkers and paparazzi are nil new for her—she's a female pop star in 2022—just these are people trying to outmaneuver the guy who runs Tesla and SpaceX (and founded the Boring Company and Neuralink). They track his private jet and post its location on Twitter. They swarm his factories with drones. Once they find him, they find her soon enough, and so they notice X.

"We movement and move and move," she'll tell me later, "considering people keep finding where nosotros live."

Grimes opens the front door wearing a double-layered cream and black shirt, made by a Korean designer friend'southward label, with the word algorithm stitched in crimson on the collar and cuffs. She invites me in with a cheerful hello, and then apologizes for the spartan atmospheric condition. She'due south only just moved into this house, which belongs to friends. Ten is with his begetter until tomorrow, so the business firm is dim and silent.

We settle into a cozy nook off the entryway, the ane room she's had time to Grimes upward with some anime-inspired decor she purchased during a wee-hours Ambien-fueled spree on Etsy. For the side by side four hours, as she and I divide a six-pack of some local arts and crafts beer and go slowly buzzed because we're both lightweights, Princess Mononoke glowers at me from a thin coating backside her on the couch. Covering the floor is an enormous Decease Notation carpet, based on a gory 2006–2007 Japanese anime Idiot box series about a teenager who can dictate the time and way of anyone's death by writing information technology downwardly in a volume. (It'south on Netflix.) Death Note is the primary inspiration for Grimes'southward recent unmarried "Shinigami Optics," as well as the video costarring her pal Jennie from Blackpink. "I like making friends with demons," Grimes chants in her demon-babe singing vocalism. "You lot need special eyes to see 'em."

Grimes is an invigorating hang. Time flies around her in nonlinear style. Art and ideas are her power source, and her free energy is infectious. She speaks so fast, in a unique Esperanto of academic theory, Silicon Valley iii.0 futurism, and lodge-kid slang. At ane signal she hops up to show me her new tattoo, a serial of milky-white slashes on her upper torso meant to look like alien scars. Yet for someone who might be from some other planet, she's remarkably downwards-to-earth. For someone who'south so excited about A.I., she sure does love the company of people.

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About 15 minutes after we sit down to hash out her new music, a "space opera" due this spring-ish tentatively chosen Book i, I hear what sounds vaguely like a lone cry from an babe upstairs. I think I find Grimes wince, only I say cipher and motion on. Could exist anything.

Another few minutes laissez passer. But as I'm near to bring up one of Volume ane's highlights, a soon-to-be-ubiquitous banger called "Sci-Fi" that she cowrote with The Weeknd and his longtime producer Illangelo, I hear it once more. This time it's multiple cries, and information technology's unmistakable. I've got two kids. That's a baby. And I can tell by the frozen look on my host'due south face that she heard it besides. So I brace myself to ask the strangest question of my career: Do you have another baby in your life, Grimes?

Her body clenches and she looks away.

"I'g not at liberty to speak on these things," she begins, and so all in a tumble she says: "Whatever is going on with family stuff, I but feel like kids need to stay out of it, and Ten is but out there. I mean, I retrieve Eastward is really seeing him as a protégé and bringing him to everything and stuff.… X is out there. His state of affairs is like that. Merely, yeah, I don't know."

She's rattled, and I'k mortified by even accidentally making a woman—a new mother, no less—feel exposed and vulnerable. I suggest we interruption for a moment to talk over the surreal professional ethics at play, which are that I tin't pretend I don't know she's got a clandestine baby with the earth'south wealthiest man hiding upstairs. Especially when she invited me here. It's a calming catamenia that breaks with a sitcom punch line: full-blown infant screams upstairs, followed by the vocalisation of a woman pleading SHH. Now we both outset laughing.

Did she really retrieve I wasn't going to hear a baby?

Grimes only shakes her head. "She's a lilliputian colicky as well." She laughs once again and buries her face in her hands. "I don't know. I don't know what I was thinking."

Congratulations to Grimes and Elon Musk on the nascency of their second kid together! It's a girl!

You probably have some questions.

When Grimes was pregnant with Ten in 2020, she had a clear sense of the boy he'd plough out to be. "I just had a vibe," she says. "I was similar, 'I experience like he's going to be a peaceful behemothic.' " She was right.

Grimes, meanwhile, used to get called "waifish" so often in profiles that she railed against it in a viral 2013 Tumblr postal service. The concluding calendar month of her pregnancy with 10, she couldn't walk. "He was pressing on my nerves, so I kept collapsing," she says. "I took a few steps and collapsed. Information technology was kind of scary, considering you don't want to fall a lot when y'all're eight months pregnant. And then I would just crawl to the bath and clamber back or whatever." At 1 point during the pregnancy, she thought she was dying. "Like, I hemorrhaged. It was scary." She and Musk wanted more kids, only she feared serious complications.

Last fall, though, Musk appeared to confirm rumors that they'd carve up upward. "Grimes and I are, I'd say, probably semi-separated," he told Time, which named him its 2021 Person of the Year. He chalked this upward to busy careers in afar cities. He was spending more than fourth dimension in Texas, where SpaceX operates its Starbase circuitous and Tesla is opening a new Gigafactory. Grimes was bunkered in Los Angeles with X and working on Book i. Around the time of her daughter'southward birth in December, though, she relocated full fourth dimension to Austin, and that's where I'm coming together her—on a sleepy neighborhood cul-de-sac 15 minutes from downtown, less than an hour by private jet from Starbase, and a short drive from the Tesla factory.

Close followers of Grimes on social media may recall that she was definitely not pregnant during the latter months of 2021. She and Musk used a surrogate this time, which in combination with the pandemic enabled them to keep their daughter a secret, right up until Y shared the news just at present on her own.

That's what they call her, by the way: Y. She's got a total proper name, but this doesn't seem like the moment to ask for it. If today's excitement turns out to be how the world learns that X has a little sis, well, at to the lowest degree Grimes did it her way.

So, wait—are Grimes and Musk nonetheless together?

Yes. No. What do you mean by "together"?

"There's no existent word for it," she begins. "I would probably refer to him as my boyfriend, just we're very fluid. We alive in separate houses. We're best friends. We see each other all the time…. We merely take our own thing going on, and I don't await other people to understand it." What matters, I offer, is that they're happy. So are they? "Aye," she says. "This is the best information technology's ever been.... Nosotros but need to be free." They plan to accept more children too. "We've e'er wanted at least iii or 4."

Grimes was a musical autodidact who went viral in 2010 with some of the very outset songs she fabricated on GarageBand, then spent a decade creating every single notation in a male-dominated industry, no affair how much unrequested aid men kept offering. She connected with Musk through Twitter in 2018, which is how he discovered they'd fabricated the aforementioned pun about a dark theory of A.I.-authorized torture called Roko's basilisk. (He tweeted "Rococo basilisk"; years before, she'd made a music video featuring a grapheme called Rococo Basilisk.) While the world was huddled indoors, Tesla took off like a BFR—that's an inside joke for the SpaceX junkies in the firm—sending Musk's net worth into the stratosphere, and he seemed to delight in provoking his trolls. For Grimes, the dent to her reputation has been real. Overnight, a chunk of her core constituency—the internet—turned on her. She was no longer a revolutionary. She was Marie Antoinette.

"I feel really trapped between two worlds," Grimes tells me. "I used to be and then far left that I went through a period of living without currency, living outside." This was during and after college at McGill University in Montreal. Once she and a young man ran afoul of the police force in Minnesota equally they tried to sail a houseboat they'd built out of bodily junk down the Mississippi River. The police impounded the gunkhole and sent them on their way. During her first shows as Grimes, she'd sleep in a tent when she couldn't beget a hotel. She's 34, at present, though, with a job and 2 kids. "I mean, when people say I'grand a course traitor that is not…an inaccurate description," she admits. "I was deeply from the far left and I converted to beingness essentially a backer Democrat. A lot of people are understandably upset."

We're approaching hour three of talking, and beer three. Y is sound asleep upstairs.

"Just at the same time…" I can physically observe her brain cells maxim screw it. "Like, bro wouldn't even go a new mattress." This was back when they were both living in Los Angeles. Her side of the mattress had a hole in it. When she raised the consequence, he suggested they replace his mattress with the one at her firm. The mattresses are fine now. Withal: "Bro does not live like a billionaire. Bro lives at times below the poverty line. To the point where I was like, tin can we non live in a very insecure $40,000 business firm? Where the neighbors, similar, pic us, and there'south no security, and I'm eating peanut butter for viii days in a row?" She is well aware that many see Musk equally some embodiment of luxurious backlog, and Grimes is here to tell you she fuckin' wishes.

This home in Austin could be whatsoever house in whatever upscale neighborhood. Information technology's got a gorgeous view of the Colorado River in the dorsum and a tiny pool that she has no plans to employ because she's not a big fan of sun. It's a nice firm. Information technology'due south no Versailles.

"I'm not super into amenities," she says. "Merely, um, I need diet and stuff."

Grimes often describes her music as "post-internet," because the entire history of sound is but a click away, from 9 Inch Nails to Hildegard von Bingen'due south 12th-century chanting and Stravinsky to Mariah Carey's daunting octaves, ready for her to pluck, bend, shape, and morph. If you lot fall into the category of people who'd never heard of her until she met Musk, 2015's "Kill Five. Maim," one of the biggest hits off her fourth album, Art Angels, is the perfect 4-minute crash grade. Information technology's a pulsing, menacing dance-punk rager, told from the perspective of Michael Corleone in The Godfather Part II, simply in the Grimes remix, he's a genderfluid vampire wrestling with a moral conundrum. Just your garden-variety pop disquisition on the nature of man and the inexorable pull toward brutality and anarchy. "Impale V. Maim" has been streamed 72 million times on Spotify alone. Decades from now, it'll still audio similar a revolution.

Book 1 remains a piece of work in progress, simply the 15 songs Grimes has got so far represent her most audacious work all the same, each song its own planet of sound—well-baked California pop, guild shakers, arena anthems, ethereal requiems, "fairycore." The anthology takes place in the afar futurity, at a phase of technological advocacy when you can upload your consciousness into a robotic body and essentially live forever as a Cymek, in the parlance of scientific discipline-fiction aficionados. ("I feel like Jeff Bezos is gonna be a Cymek," says Grimes.) Her space opera's antihero is a Cymek she calls "the dark king," the world's greatest engineer, whom Grimes featured in the video for her contempo unmarried "Histrion of Games." By the time our story begins, he's pushing 10,000.

Grimes is still hammering out the plot, but one key thread is a kind of cyberpunk spin on Swan Lake. There'south a white swan (an exaggerated version of Grimes—the nighttime king'due south dream girl, a simulated courtesan who grows weary of being a muse) and there's a black swan (an A.I. menace who wreaks havoc in the simulation), except in Grimes's feminist reboot, the swans ditch the Cymek, fall in dear, and fight for each other instead. From there information technology gets kind of complicated. "Despite all my rage / I am yet just a doll in a muzzle," she sings, paying homage to Baton Corgan of the Groovy Pumpkins, heroes of her wilding teens.

Book ane is Grimes's Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness, with a hint of Lemonade, and it was partly inspired by a theory of Musk's: that she'south a simulation. "We keep having this conversation where E'due south like, 'Are y'all real? Or are we living in my memory, and you're like a synthesized companion that was created to exist my companion hither?' " If this sounds like he's asking her if she's a virtual pleasure bot, that'due south not (entirely) what he means. Anyhow, she says, she'south never felt entirely real herself: "The degree to which I feel engineered to have been this, like, perfect companion is crazy."

Does she mean the perfect companion for him specifically?

"Yes. Even but studying astrophysics and neuroscience. And it'due south really annoying because people think I'm an airhead who went to fine art school." (She actually wanted to, but it was as well expensive.)

A chat with Grimes can be like staring at a Tokyo subway map when you don't speak Japanese. She'south always using scientific terms and alluding to heady concepts, so checking with me to make sure I know what they mean because usually I practice not. If in that location's an airhead in this room, it'southward not her.

"Do you know what a protopia is?" No. (A land of gradual progress toward utopia.)

"Constructive altruism?" I hateful, I know what those words mean. (Using data analysis to maximize resource deployment to aid others.)

"The Overton window?" I idea so, just I looked it up while she was in the bathroom and I was wrong. (The spectrum of accepted soapbox and achievable ideas.)

"What about neuroplasticity?" Now I'm worried she just thinks I'thou stupid.

Grimes was raised as a strict Catholic, which she struggled with, though she loved the spectacle of church. The Quondam Testament was like an ultraviolent blockbuster. Biblical manga. She spent year one of the pandemic taking care of X and plunging down a rabbit hole of Homer, Herodotus, the Anglo-Saxon Chronicle, the Icelandic sagas. An idea began to form: a space opera about the galaxy-altering events unfolding before her eyes, in which she has become an unwitting participant. A love story virtually some epic stuff. The futurity of civilization. Simulated protopia. The dawn of artistic A.I. Terraforming Mars. Here was a golden opportunity to pry open that Overton window, Grimes-way. "The idea of the female Herodotus," she says, "almost doesn't exist."

Grimes isn't merely the narrator, though. She's also a principal character, and over the class of written history, her archetype—the lover, the siren, the mistress—hasn't been treated with much respect. Book 1 alludes to Athena, Calypso, Persephone, the black swan, Anne Boleyn, courtesans, concubines, geishas. "These weren't just hot girls," she says. "They were the smartest girls, some of the near educated women of their time." They painted, sang, designed their ain wearable. They were the Grimeses of their day.

And then they got written into history as some rich guy'due south sidepiece. "I ate my block / I lost my head / Villain of the net," Grimes sings on a Police-inflected rail from Book i called "Marie Antoinette 2077." "I'chiliad super inspired by the mode women get pulled into orbits in this fashion," she tells me. "In that location's this weird dismissal of them. These are some of the most interesting characters in history to me, and they're and then demeaned…. I experience similar the well-nigh radical thing I could do right now is just become Marie Antoinette." She considers it for a second. "Infamy is kind of fun."

She quickly adds that she doesn't want this to become all about Musk. She says it often during our conversations, and she'due south referring to this article, but she could merely every bit hands be referring to her life. The culture took sides on Grimes from the moment the couple appeared at the Met gala in 2018; their incongruous outfits, her looking like an interstellar Elvira, him wearing a prim white jacket, became an instant mismatch meme. Her Instagram mentions turned into a cesspool. She'd continue social media and defend herself. Gauge how that went.

"It killed me at starting time," she says now. "I spent 10 years fucking producing, writing, engineering, every unmarried fucking thing on my own. And I fucking proved myself." Her friends are still furious on her behalf, more for the erasing than the hating. "It frustrates me because she'south every bit brilliant as him," says Boeree. "When I see her referred to equally the significant other of another person, it's like, Oh, come on."

Over the years, Grimes has slyly rebelled. She let the paparazzi catch her in a Dune-inspired bodysuit and leggings while ostentatiously reading The Communist Manifesto. She lampooned her cyber-nymph persona by posting her "self-intendance regimen" on Instagram. ("I spend 2–4 hours in my deprivation tank, this allows me to 'astro-glide' to other dimensions—past, present, and future.") About half of the pop-culture milky way thought she was serious. Until the mean solar day she dies on Mars, legitimate media outlets will exist reporting that she had experimental surgery to remove blue low-cal from her visual spectrum.

In other words, rebellion didn't piece of work.

Grimes also started to feel unexpectedly conflicted near her function in this theater. For one thing, she liked being Musk's girlfriend. She knows she'due south going to get slaughtered for saying this, only: "Personally, I don't think 'manic pixie dream girl' is an insult. I exactly place with all of those terms. I understand it's supposed to be a critique of sure things, merely then I claiming that critique." She began to reject what she calls "this misplaced idea of feminism of, like, I need to exist my own thing, I need to be carve up." She has kids with Musk. "Split up" is off the tabular array for skillful. "There is no fashion to extricate myself," she says now. So she did what artists practise: She turned her aureate cage into source textile.

According to her little brother Mac, the Bouchers' childhood in Vancouver was like Stranger Things minus the Demogorgon. Kids in nearly every house on the street. Secret clubs in the basement. Bikes. Vancouver is as well a port city, though, with lots of criminal offence and pretty much every drug that enters Canada. By high school, they had more than or less graduated from Stranger Things to Euphoria.

"I was like a mix of Jules and Rue," Grimes says, referring to the Euphoria characters played by Hunter Schafer and Zendaya, respectively. "That sounds about correct," says Mac.

In other words, she was a hyper-smart, thrill-seeking, gender-exploring time bomb whose hobbies included rejecting capitalism, partying too difficult, and dancing until sunrise, though Mac notes she was also an overachieving directly-A student, politically radical, and deeply involved with what was then called the Gay/Straight Alliance. She tried LSD for the first fourth dimension when she was 13 and has lost multiple friends to opiate overdoses. She would pay for drugs by doing homework for Taiwanese loan sharks. Mac, who is two years younger, got involved in sports instead, and he sounds well-nigh amazed that he was the younger sibling. She was e'er doing what he calls "impaired Claire shit." He asks if she told me about the houseboat. Yes, she did. "That was ane of the first adult choices she made."

The Euphoria phase was less nigh defiance, Grimes says, and more than nigh Deoxyribonucleic acid, specially that of her grandad on her father's side, whom she describes as "crazy" and "jarringly unwoke." "My gramps is hard as fuck," she says. He grew up in poverty. "Super antiestablishment. Teach yourself. Don't rely on other people to teach you anything." She says he taught her how to shoot guns when she was 6. Grimes'southward parents divorced when she was effectually 11, and her mother married a homo with two sons, bringing her brother count to four. Her grandpa nursed her competitive fire. Y'all gonna allow your brothers defeat you? Being outnumbered by the boys has never phased her since. She says he taught her to drive a standard transmission by instructing her to reverse the motorcar to the border of a cliff. If she lets the car roll backward, she says, recalling information technology at present, "we're literally going to die."

She won't be forcing teenage X to pop a clutch or die trying. He'll exist in a self-driving Tesla, presumably. And anyway, she won't have to thrust X and Y into brutal tests of their mettle. Just being the children of Grimes and Elon Musk will be plenty of a barrage, and the shields never seem to hold.

"It's going to exist difficult for them," she says, "in a dissimilar style."

Grimes's grandfather is still alive and yet lives like a hermit in remote British Columbia. In one case he gave her some professional person feedback: You really need to sexual practice it up. You should be more similar Miley Cyrus. "He was like, 'Your career is going to be way better if you lot beginning showing more than skin,' " she recalls. "I was like, 'Grandpa.' "

Grimes's first record was a Dune-inspired concept album called Geidi Primes, a reference to the militaristic planet ruled in the recent movie by an enormous Stellan Skarsgård. (She dubbed herself Grimes considering MySpace allowed her to acquaintance herself with three musical genres, and she liked the name "grime," and then a nascent British music scene.) Her male parent read Frank Herbert's book to her when she was four. She loved it. At one Met gala, she cornered Sting, who starred in David Lynch's much-derided adaptation, and freaked him out with a heavy dose of Dune fangirling.

For years Grimes harbored a dream of directing her ain accommodation of Dune, with the more problematic colonialist elements scrubbed out, merely when she heard nigh Denis Villeneuve's two-function blockbuster, she fangirled all over once more and signed on to aid with the rollout, originally scheduled for November 2020. ("I was basically an influencer.") And then, she adds, she got canceled from Dune considering of the Communist Manifesto thing. She was crestfallen, but she understood. "There are things that are deeply not woke in the Dune universe," she says, then the studio had to exist extra-cautious, and she was far from indispensable.

When she finally saw the movie, she realized to her astonishment that this story she'd adored since she was far too young for it, that she knew well-nigh by heart, that inspired her offset album—this story was now her story. Specifically Lady Jessica's story. This goes by fast onscreen, only Jessica (played past Rebecca Ferguson) is non a married woman but a concubine. Grimes saw herself in Jessica, and she saw Ten in Jessica'due south son, Paul Atreides (Timothée Chalamet). Paul is more than a duke'southward son. He's a called one, tasked with becoming a keen leader. "When I encounter X," she says, "like, I only know X is going to take to go through all this really fucked-up shit that sort of mirrors Paul-type stuff." Watching information technology wrecked her. "I was but crying my eyes out the whole pic."

She knows this might audio absurd. Grandiose. She wishes it felt that style to her besides.

"I feel similar there's very few people in the world who could have similar sentiments about their son than Claire with X," Mac says when I relay this to him. I ask if information technology's surreal to lookout his sister live this life. "Aye," he says, laughing. "But I'g besides not really surprised? Because she somehow always gets into the virtually insane possible scenarios."

By the summertime of 2019, Grimes was in the early days of her romance with Musk and getting canceled online for information technology, and she was too finishing Miss Anthropocene, her long (long) awaited follow-upwards to Art Angels, all while her longtime manager and closest daily confidant was dying of cancer. Her life, she says, has always been "level-10 chaos." This was level 11. She'd been making everything by herself for a decade, and she was sick of it.

She needed to figure out a new mode to exist an artist, which meant figuring out a new fashion to make money being an creative person. "I hate touring, and I detest selling merch," she told her new manager, Daouda Leonard, during their first FaceTime phone call. He laughs at the retentiveness. "If you know anything virtually being a manager in the music industry.…" At this bespeak most managers would accept hung up. Instead he said, "Absurd, you lot're going to bout in the metaverse and you lot're gonna sell digital assets, digital appurtenances. Okay. Problem solved."

They got to work creating an avatar of her torso, dubbed WarNymph, and in February 2021 Grimes became among the first musicians to sell an NFT collection of digital artwork, some with accompanying music. Mac'south thought. She generated $6 meg from that i driblet—more she's e'er fabricated from any of her albums. They engineered a deepfake of her voice that she plans to release with other IP inside metaverse experiences and gaming platforms similar The Sandbox, a sort of open-source creative experiment. Look at fan fic, she says. And then much inventive stuff is happening there if y'all know where to await. She has similar plans for an A.I. girl grouping she's designing named NPC, which is gamer speak for "nonplayer character." She puts the A.I. daughter grouping out into the earth, you go brand something with it.

The NFT project was so lucrative that if it had happened two weeks before, Grimes says, she might not take signed her showtime major-label deal with Columbia Records. No shots at Columbia, she adds—they've been groovy—but she only did it to pay for the ambitious videos she had in mind. The one for "Shinigami Eyes," a futuristic trip the light fantastic toe-pop phantasmagoria, was among the first music videos filmed on an extended reality (xR) phase like to what was used to make The Mandalorian.

Of course, signing with a major characterization was considered yet another betrayal by the Grimes purists, but where they see a sellout, she sees artistic liberation. You lot sign with a label—whatever label, of whatever size—for coin, which yous tin can either put into your pocket or plow back into the mission.

The pes traffic is heavier the next afternoon when I render to Grimes's house, including little X. He arrives virtually 30 minutes later his mom and I have settled back into the anime nook, and equally he charges through the door she leaps to her feet with a delighted yelp. He says a friendly hi to me and afterwards makes a bid for her laptop and then he can scout My Neighbor Totoro, Miyazaki's archetype with the behemothic Catbus.

In solidarity with all the new moms out there, Grimes is wearing the same outfit as yesterday. She hasn't touched her makeup. Respect. While she gets X on his way for a playdate, I take in the view of the Colorado River from the living room. I expect down and see a neat pile of flick books, and at the bottom, Time'southward Person of the Twelvemonth upshot with X's father on the cover. The room is dominated past a massive ruddy couch shaped like a giant Tootsie Roll, and it looks amazingly comfortable, but the kids have done a number on it, possibly both numbers, so Grimes sits cross-legged on the floor instead, and nosotros discuss the Elephant of the Year in the room.

"Nosotros live in this lodge right now where people expect everyone to behave right, and talk right," she begins. "You take these manifestations of genius, but so you desire them to conduct normally—but the reason they're like that is because they're so disconnected from correct behavior." Humans are beautiful and toxic in equal supply, she says. "Like, we fuck upwardly. We're all gonna do bad things in our life. Nosotros're all gonna exercise stupid things." She's talking about Musk, but once over again she could be talking well-nigh herself. "They're both such deeply original thinkers," says Liv Boeree, whom Grimes drafted to costar as her black swan in the video for a Volume 1 runway called "100% Tragedy." "The lines mistiness with them about whether it's even art versus engineering or science, because really we're talking about creating something that does not exist."

From the moment they stepped out at the Met gala, every PR mess Musk created—calling an explorer who helped in the Thailand cavern rescue a "pedo guy"; tweeting that "pronouns suck," which elicited a pained, now-deleted reply from Grimes; referring to Elizabeth Warren as "Senator Karen"—has turned into a referendum on Grimes. "When you lot hate me / think information technology fixes you to break me," she sings on Book i. "I'll never fight you back because / everything you hate is everything I love."

Grimes can get far more wound up on Musk's behalf than her ain, but one thing that really pisses her off is how many people think that she surrendered her agency to him. They took her silence for complicity, rather than how she viewed her silence, which was non submitting to their sexist horseshit. Why should she have to respond to every scandalous thing he says? You don't recollect he drives her crazy too sometimes? Have you always been in a relationship?

Once again, she doesn't want this to become all about Musk, merely…she wishes his progressive haters would show some respect for the work, for actually accomplishing their goals. He's done more than any other individual citizen to wean the planet off fossil fuels. He helped protect internet service in Ukraine past making his Starlink satellite terminals available. And Grimes is baffled that and so many people view his Mars ambition every bit some billionaire's boondoggle, rather than the essence of existence homo and maybe, simply maybe, the key to our survival.

"The Mars projection is difficult," she says. "There'southward no income for information technology. At that place'due south no way for it to make money." You can't brand money, later on all, without customers. "It'due south for the benefit of humanity, and information technology's dangerous and information technology'due south expensive, and people are like, He's hoarding money! No, he's spending everything on R&D." She knows she can audio too admiring, and she knows it'll go her mocked. Spiral it.

"Bro might say a lot of stupid shit," she says finally, "but he does the correct thing."

In the days after I return domicile from Austin, I settle into a new morn routine: Wake upwards, cheque my telephone, and read the texts that Grimes sent the dark before at around ii a.thousand. She'south as nocturnal as ever.

"I would literally die for a time machine but peculiarly for similar pre civ type stuff," she writes during an exchange about the earliest known tattoos. "Like human it must have been HARD. The aesthetics of that time r just similar next level similar haha they had insanely proficient fashion." She sends a photograph she found online. "Similar this girl looks like she'south dressed in Yeezy." She gives me fun assignments, so checks to see if I've done them. ("Did u read the omegas short story at the first of life 3.0 past Max tegmark even so?" I did. Heed-blown emoji.)

One morning I wake to a text about Musk. "Hahaha e says he'll practice an interview with you lot surprisingly."

A week subsequently, shortly before midnight on a Friday, Grimes calls from Musk's Tesla and puts them on speakerphone. It's date night. They've got a sitter for X and Y, and they're going to the movies—an early on cutting of dailies past a managing director friend. Nosotros've got 12 minutes to talk. Musk is in the driver'due south seat letting the car do the driving, and Grimes is refreshing his memory nearly the chorus to "Player of Games," which dropped in December and is more or less almost him: "If I loved him any less I'd brand him stay / but he has to be the best player of games."

"I wouldn't say I have to be the best player of games," Musk says. He thinks the guy in the song sounds "somewhat overwrought." Grimes concedes a flake of dramatic license, but "it rhymes well." He does like strategy games an awful lot, though, and she asks for permission to share that he has the tiptop score on a popular civilisation-edifice game called The Boxing of Polytopia, which Musk describes as a "much more complex version of chess." He'due south even bested Polytopia's creator, Felix Ekenstam. "I literally beat him at his ain game," Musk says. (He'due south also lost a bunch to Ekenstam likewise.)

Grimes and Musk agree that living separately is wise. They're but too different on the basic stuff. He likes things "reasonably smashing." She likes to be able to run across everything she owns, all at one time. He likes quality design, clean aesthetics. She likes Death Notation rugs from Etsy.

"You did take that cool vintage Japanese City affiche for a bit," Grimes points out.

"That was yours."

"Oh yeah," she says. "Truthful."

As the Tesla beeps and begins to park itself, Musk sums up his position: "I only don't like things to be messy and anime."

When "Actor of Games" first dropped, Grimes'southward fans assumed it was almost her rumored split from Musk, when in fact they were welcoming their second child and spending the holidays together as a family. The idea for the song came to her during a conversation with friends two years ago while she was three or iv months pregnant with X, when Musk casually mentioned that he planned to depart for Mars in 10 years. She froze.

"I was like, 'Uhhh….' " She remembers laughing nervously. "I said, 'Could we make it xx?' "

"It wasn't new data," Musk says in the car, lightly protesting when I bring this upwardly. "I've been saying since before she was pregnant that I was going to Mars." Sure, she replies, but "I didn't know you were going, like, this soon." She is withal trying to convince Musk to stick around longer, merely either fashion she came out of information technology with a killer song for her space opera.

"Player of Games" isn't about their breakup. Information technology's most going into space (sort of). For most parents, even twenty years from now would be also soon. Non for Grimes. "The thing is, I fuckin' live and die past the mission. I believe in the mission." She'd used that phrase often—"the mission"—and gradually I realized information technology was a name. Capital Yard. When I asked what she meant by it, she replied without hesitation: "Sustainable energy, multiplanetary species. The preservation of consciousness." Terminal March, Grimes wrote on Instagram that she was "ready to die with the ruby-red clay of Mars beneath my feet." Now she talks as though it's a fait accompli. "I will probably go when I'm, like, 65 or so," she tells me, the same way you might say information technology'southward always been your dream to visit the Galapagos. Hard to reach, probably out of your toll range, merely doable in theory.

She tells me she's worried she came off ranty and cynical the previous twenty-four hour period, when in reality she'south closer to a pure idealist. This extends to A.I., she says. Why is everyone so gloomy about our cybernetic future? What if A.I. likes humanity? What if it winds upwardly beingness all of our creative all-time and none of our vehement worst? What would that look similar? I suggest later via text that her proverbial glass is 60 percent total, and she replies: "Im glass xc% total."

Martian travel, she argues, "is only another Overton window conversation." Airplanes take existed for just over a century. The space program was fighting for survival a decade ago. And yet Michael Strahan—an ex-NFL star turned morning time-evidence fixture—went to infinite last December. She snorts at the thought, though, of Mars as space tourism for the 0.i percent: "There's not gonna be any makeup or Postmates. It's definitely gonna suck. And definitely early death for sure." Either style, she's volunteering. "I'd rather die trying to do something impossible and mayhap declining," she says, "than simply proceed releasing cute pop songs."

In the meantime, Grimes gets to plow the whole experience into art, and her kids get a digital-historic period version of Jedi preparation. When Musk and Grimes get-go met, he was Tony Stark and she was his kooky Pepper Potts. Now their domestic life is more like the Incredibles. Her role with X, she says, is "handling his creative stuff." She's set up to start him on Ableton Live, the digital sound software, and she's taken him to his first rave, though he left at 11:thirty p.m.

Grimes has grown semi-comfortable with Musk treating X like his piddling captain of industry, but she says things volition be different with their girl. Quick story: In 2016, when my own daughter was vi, I took her to her outset concert, Grimes opening for Florence + the Machine at the Barclays Centre in Brooklyn. The next night, before the show, the FBI warned Grimes that a stalker known to them was believed to take bought a ticket and could be in the audience. This was but days later Christina Grimmie, a vocalist who rose to fame on The Voice, was murdered after a show by a deranged fan. Grimes played one-half her set up that dark through panic attacks, then walked off.

Suffice to say the public won't be seeing much of her daughter.

"The all-time situation here," she says, "is me training the girl and him"—Musk— "preparation the boy."

Y's confront may be off-limits to the outside world, merely since date nighttime with Musk, Grimes has been mulling whether to share her girl'due south total proper noun. She knows it'll surface somewhen, and also she'southward proud of it. "Information technology's fire," she texts on Dominicus dark. Screw information technology, she decides. She'll do it her way.

"Her total name," she writes, "is Exa Dark Sideræl Musk."

Exa is a reference to the supercomputing term exaFLOPS (the ability to perform 1 quintillion floating-point operations per second). Dark, meanwhile, is "the unknown. People fear it merely truly information technology'south the absence of photons. Dark matter is the beautiful mystery of our universe." She texts me a voice memo with the pronunciation of Sideræl—"sigh-deer-ee-el"—which she calls "a more elven" spelling of sidereal, "the true time of the universe, star time, deep space time, not our relative earth time." It's as well a nod to her favorite Lord of the Rings character, the powerful Galadriel, who "chooses to forsake the ring."

Grimes is prepared for Y to dislike her name or get tired of it—Grimes got tired of Claire a long fourth dimension ago—and if she e'er decides to change it, her mother will exist start in line to assistance her choose a new ane. She's already got dozens of ideas. She might even alter it herself earlier this article comes out. In addition to Y, she and Musk occasionally call her Sailor Mars, a nod to the Crewman Moon manga series. Exa Dark Sideræl was actually something of a compromise, and she worries it'southward a little boring.

"I was fighting for Odysseus Musk," she writes. "A daughter named Odysseus is my dream."

Nosotros speak one time more than by phone on the eve of Lunar New Twelvemonth and talk over Mars once more. I apologize to her for the cheesiness of what I'g near to ask: When y'all imagine your hereafter life on Mars, is Elon in that location? Is he with you? Are you doing it together?

"Hopefully," she says, so goes quiet for a few moments. She hasn't considered this before. "Wow. Wow. Because, yeah, y'all're right, he'll probably get and so I'll come up subsequently. Wow."

Mars would still exist a brutal place to live, it'd still suck, merely at least Due east and c would exist together, swell that Overton window to bits. And if Ten and Y desire to bring together their parents, they would have a free ticket waiting for them. The rocket ships would depart in synchrony with the narrow window every two years when Globe's orbit is the shortest distance from the red planet, tens of millions of miles away. Grimes tin can see it in her mind'due south eye now, them together on Mars, one big happy thermonuclear family. Maybe information technology really is all just a simulation, but it all the same makes her grin.

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